Quandary
21 Oct 2010 Leave a Comment
in General Tags: alone, Confusion, down, funky, lost, sad, speechless, suicidal
I have no idea what to do. Totally lost and confused. Too many decisions to make at the moment and I don’t want any part of it. I hate making decisions. I just want to be left alone and for the world to be smooth sailing all the way. Ridiculous, I know; but still, the way I feel at the moment.
I wonder how people who live to be over 100 manage it? Life isn’t a 50/50 event. More like 75% bad and 25% mediocre. Probably some out there who would argue the point, but I say they just haven’t lived enough if that is their opinion. Or, maybe it’s the other way around. Maybe “I” have not lived enough if that is my opinion. 
Who the hell knows.
Doing one heck of a lot better!
20 Oct 2010 Leave a Comment
in General Tags: annoying tasks, Face Book, life in general, Mafia Wars, web design, Web stuff
Knocked another 6 things off my “annoying” list. Two more to go and then I can get to the fun stuff. I really, really… do NOT like server maintenance. At one time I actually found Linux and all the program languages fun. Imagine that. These days, I just want to concentrate on creating and developing. Fortunately, there’s only one more site to go that has serious work calling me. But I don’t feel like going there now. It can wait until Saturday. I think. I’ll have to speak with B.C. I know he’s been with me a long time, but you know what? Sometimes even he has to take a number and wait his turn. This morning I almost threw my phone out the window and seriously considered following that up with my computer. I think it would have given me great pleasure to see the damned thing smashed to smithereens down in the yard. 
Yeah.
On a down note (which I rarely mention, but this one deserves a spot here)… Melody’s demanding a complete revamp of her shopping cart. I’ve told her time and again that to put the items in alphabetical order is a mistake. I’ve told her that people don’t search that way. Usually they go by price first. But will she listen to me? Hell no. So, I’m going to go against my better judgment and let her have her way. I’ll take all prices out, put the damned pieces in alphabetical order (as if people really know all the gems by their geological names), and I’ll make the site that horrid green she seems to like so much. Lord, have mercy.
Back to my gaming. I’m slowly weaning myself off stupid Mafia Wars and Frontier Ville. I don’t know if I can completely walk away from MW, but I’m going to seriously cut down on the time I spend there. Today I went to the park with the doggies and just sat there for a good while. Wow! I had forgotten there’s actual life outside of my computer! Must make a note to do it again. Soon.
SO Bored!
18 Oct 2010 Leave a Comment
in Mafia Wars Tags: games, gaming, Mafia Wars, online games, playing, Zynga
There are tons of things I have to do, but I’m bored to death. Too much of a good thing is bad for anyone, but for me, all it does is make me lose all interest. IMHO, Mafia Wars went to hell in a hand basket right after Moscow. Bangkok was a piece of shit to play, and Las Vegas is really ridiculous. Zynga says Italy will open up soon. This time, I’m not going to get excited about the opening of a new city. The last two times I was horribly disappointed and I’m not willing to go there again.
I do, however, have a plan for making my character stronger. My defense at the moment sucks, so that’s the area I will be concentrating on for a while. That and the health. I would love to have 2,000 health. That way, people could attack me and win, but they would be hard pressed to ice me or snuff me. I like that idea.
A little less lazy
13 Oct 2010 2 Comments
in General Tags: Boredom, debts, Facebook, Friends, Mafia Wars, mental health
I’m doing just a tad better today. Lately I’ve been super lazy, not wanting to do anything at all. But I’m trying to get back to being a regular normal human being and the only way I know to do so is to take baby steps.
I’m still in a quandary as to whether or not to leave Twisted. I’m not really happy there and I have no real friends. I’ve tried a little. Maybe not as hard as I should, but then neither have they. Jacquie dominates all conversations and she’s gotten to be a big know-it-all (which I detest). I think I want to go back to EHG. I know they are not the best, but at least I had carved a little niche for myself.
Yesterday I took care of Dr. Pazora’s site — that knocks one annoying task off my list of obligations. God, I wish I could just say “Poof!” and all my debts would be paid.
It’s Me
12 Oct 2010 Leave a Comment
in General
I miss blogging, so I decided to pick it up again. I may not post every day, and my posts may not all be “happy”, but who cares. This blog exists for my own benefit and purposes.
